Friday, November 30, 2012

AHH!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!
So, if you read the last post, I told you about how Seattle Talent never called me back...
Well, I did what I said I would do (Thank GOD) and called them.
Here's what happened:
Her: Thank you for calling Seattle Talent, what city are you auditioning from?
Me: Boise, ID.
Her: Are you auditioning for yourself?
Me: Yes. And actually, I called a few days ago, and was told I'd get a phone call the next day, but never did.
Her: I don't know why someone would tell you that, we were supposed to send you an email.
Me: Oh, really? I didn't get one of those, either.
Her: Oh well it's tomorrow at 10:00 o' clock, at the Boise Hotel and Conference Center at 3401 Brazil Street in Boise.
Me: Okay! Thank you!
Her: It's upscale casual, and you need to bring a picture you can leave with us. Show up ten minutes early. Are you under 18?
Me: Yes.
Her: Okay, well you'll need to bring a parent/guardian with you, too.
Me: Okay!
Her: Alright, thanks for calling!
Me: No problem, thank you!

OH MY GOSH I'm shaking all over again!!!!!!!!!!
WHAT DO I DO?
This all goes down TOMORROW. And I have no idea what I'm going to sing!
WTF.

Wish me luck! I really need this in my life right now!

Torie(:

I Need Ideas.

I'm done with being upset, but I just can't help it. I need some advice, or some ideas to keep me occupied. Something I can do so I don't break down. Talking to Tigger has helped, but then the next day rolls around, the day itself is a tear fest, then night comes along, and I feel better, because I've talked to him. I just think it'd be a good idea if I had something to do during the day. Anyway, if you have any tips, you should email me @vicktortot@gmail.com. I could use the advice.
As for the Seattle Talent business, I've decided that I'm just going to call THEM back. They haven't said anything to me, so I'm just gonna call and see what happens. Wish me luck! :/
As you may have noticed, I have so far posted every day, so if anyone reads (which I don't know how many people do..) and you don't have gmail (which apparently is the only way to follow me) I guess that's how you'll know when I post.
Another thing: It may not seem like a lot of people, but everyday I come on here, I have more and more page views, and for the people who do and have been reading, I thank you :) I do appreciate it. I know lately I haven't had the cheeriest news or anything, but I will. I'm just going through a lot at the moment, and don't know what to do about it, so I express it here, I guess you could say. So again, thanks to those who are reading. As of today, right now, I have 53 page views. Again, may not seem like a lot, but I'm proud of myself, in a way.

And now, something that will hopefully cheer you up if you're having a bad day:


 Okay, that's probably used a lot. Pigs with boots... Meh. But here's some kitties in cups :D




Hope you all have a good day!

Torie(:

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Rough Day... :(

Jeez..
I've never had so much go on at once.
Last week. I had my great grandpa pass away, and last night, my great uncle passed...
I haven't come out of my room for the past 18 hours, and when I finally did come out of my room, all I did was cry.
On top of that, Seattle Talent hasn't called.
Everything is totally screwed up right now.
And, rumor has it that I like this guy at my school (who is 18 and HAS A KID), and it's completely untrue.
Ugh. Life.
Although last night, I talked to a friend of mine (who I have developed a crush on) and he made everything a lot better. We talked for 4 hours, and I completely got my mind off of the whole thing and even laughed a little. So Tigger, if you're reading this, thank you :D
I call him Tigger because he has pajamas that look just like Tigger... Minus the bouncy tail, I'm assuming.
Don't know if he likes it, but I thought it was pretty funny, and suited the situation quite well.

And get this... He likes Twilight too.. xD
Remember the guy from yesterday's post? The guy across the street?
Yeah, I found ANOTHER one.
I'm starting to wonder if guys actually do like sparkly vampires(;
Only kidding.

I know this isn't the longest post ever, but I didn't exactly leave my room often enough to tell you any spectacular news. Sorry again :(
I'm really praying things go better tomorrow than they did today.. 
Like I said, I didn't leave the house AT ALL.  Didn't go to school, anything. And when I did leave the house (to go to none other than my dead uncle's house) it didn't go well.

Hope you guys have better days than I do
Torie(:

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Becoming Debbie Downer..

Or Negative Nancy. Whichever is preferred.
They still haven't called..
It's a bummer. I feel like right as one of the most important things in my life comes up, my luck that has gone on for weeks decides to turn on me. Why couldn't it have turned sooner? Or later? Or not at all?
I'm trying to be positive about it, and I'm just hoping that they call sometime in the next few days, even though they told me they'd call the next day :/
And my brother... GOSH. I want to strangle him. Or somebody! Something... I can't hurt a person.
But really. I'm more than fed up. I've had it up to here!! *points to way above head*
Today has in fact SUCKED.
My computer teacher talks to me like I'm two, all because I didn't understand some dumb lesson, and he treated me like a child. I'm in high school, dude.
Jesus.

Oh, and guess what?
Small highlight to my day..
My parent's friends just moved in across the street, and they have a SUPER fine boy.
The only problem is that he's extremely tall, skinny, good looking, and is a football player.
He's legitimately 6'5 or something like that.
The problem part, is I'm the exact opposite of all of that.
Did I mention he's really tall, too?
Well, I just found something in common with him, and the only words I've ever spoken to him are "Hi".
I found out that this guy is a HE-UGE Twilight fan.
Not gonna lie, I'm not really big with Twilight, but I like the story line.

Here's how it went down: His parents came over to do laundry because their dryer broke. And my room is right by the laundry room, so when you walk in, the first thing you see is my door. Well, as of now, I have a poster of Bella from the Twilight premiere on my door (it's glass, that's how you can see it), and when his dad looked at it, he's all, "You like Twilight?" So I said, "Yeah, I went to the premiere to see the new one." "Oh, that's awesome! Tyler and I love Twilight! We watch it whenever we can. If we're sick for like, a week, we'll watch it over and over and over. He's seen them all over a hundred times, except for the last two." My face at this point is a cross between surprise and trying not to laugh.. So, something like this: 


And we keep on talking about this, and I thought he was messing with me, but then I showed him my V.I.P. pass, and he says, "Oh my gosh! I wish I could've gone! Tyler's gonna flip when he sees this! Honey, take a picture!" And she turns around to take a picture, and in my head, all I can think is, "Are you serious?" Then they went home. I haven't heard what he thought of the picture, but I've finally got motivation to clean my room... Just in case he, uh, decides to see what else I got from the premiere... I thought it was pretty cool, though. I don't know any guys who truly like Twilight, so it kinda made my day. Pathetic, maybe, but I don't care. I still enjoyed it.

I'm sorry this post was mostly me complaining... Tomorrow will be better, at least that's what I'm hoping for. I won't complain tomorrow.. I'll try not to anywho(:

I hope everyone else had a better day and has a better night!
Torie(:

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Mehh... :(

Day Four.
Once again, supposed to be cleaning my room.
Once again, not happening.
I'm too bummed...
Seattle Talent has yet to call... I figured they'd have done so by now.

How I wish I felt about this:


How I'm feeling on the inside:

Doesn't that just make you want to cry? :(

It's only six o'clock.. The night is young. 

And besides, if I for some reason don't make it, I'll just say

But hopefully, there won't be a need for that. 

I'm super tired today.. I fell asleep in class, too, so I don't know why. :/
For those of you who read, keep on reading! I should have much more interesting news tomorrow!
For those of you who don't, DO!
Keep your fingers crossed for the audition! Pray that Seattle Talent calls!

Night, everyone
Torie(:

Monday, November 26, 2012

Busy Day!

Day Three(:
Ya know, I find it funny that I can keep up on a blog, but I can hardly keep up on keeping my room clean..
Which is actually what I'm supposed to be doing right now.. But today has been much too hectic to concentrate on cleaning.
For one thing, school just started back up. I was much more energetic than usual.. And happy, for some reason.
Then, after school got out, my lovely friend Maleesa text me, saying, "Hey, you should call this number 855-903-6900 you can audition for a tv show or become a singer." I thought to myself, "This is a scam to raise people's dreams, I bet." But thankfully, I called it anyway, just to see what it was about. Turns out, it just so happens to be Seattle Talent. When I heard that, I started freaking out and getting the shakes. Finally, a girl picks up. This is how it went down:
Her: "Where is it you want to audition from?"
Me: "Uhh.. Meridian, Idaho?"
Her: "Okay, just one minute."
*waits*
Her: "You mean Idaho Falls?"
Me: "What do you mean?"
Her: "I don't have anywhere in Idaho."
Me: *silence*
Her: *silence*
Me: "Do you have anywhere near here?"
Her: *silence*
Her: I've got a place on blah blah blah *gives address to place*.
Me: "Oh, that's perfect!"
Her: "How old are you?"
Me: "14."
Her: "Okay, well, we'll need a parent's permission and information."
Me: "Okay!"
Her: "Name?"
Me: *tells her my mom's name*
Her: "Phone number?"
Me: *tells her phone number*
Her: "Okay, I'll have them call her and schedule your appointment!"
Me: "When do you think they'll be calling?"
Her: "Probably tomorrow."
Me: "Awesome! Thank you so much!"
Her: Yeah, no problem!"

And that was that..
It was spectacular. Now, my dreams will at least have a start at becoming true!!
You have no idea how truly excited I am...
And then, literally ten minutes after this phone call and my flipping out, I find out that my band (We're really just a bunch of friends who happen to play instruments needed to be in a band) got a gig!!

Today has been such a great day. These past few weeks have been spectacular. I'm so grateful for everything I have in life right now(:

What's been going on with you lately? Message me, let me know how you've been doing?
Bye, Lovlies

Torie(:

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Update, Maybe?

I got a question from myself that I'm sure people are wondering:
Why did I call my blog Dream Studios?
I have two answers.
A) It sounded cool.
B) I'm a dreamer, and I want other people like myself to be able to call this place home.

About this post.. Considering I've only made one previous entry, I'm not sure what it is I'm updating.
But I do have a question... Or two...

How do you define a dream?

How many of you have/ have had dreams?

Not dreams like when you're sleeping, exactly, but dreams that you make up in your head?

I have a few. Then again, I probably define the word dream differently than you do.
To me, the word dream isn't just a word. For me, it's more of a goal, something I have to achieve, or I'll never rest. For example.. One of my biggest dreams, since I was a little girl, was to become a famous singer. There was never a time when I wasn't singing, humming, la-la-la-ing, and so on and so forth.
And when I sang, I always thought I made people happy. So I thought, I should make everyone happy!
Unfortunately, I learned the hard way that you can never make everyone happy. But I didn't let that stop me!

Okay, for a few years, maybe I did.
I dropped the singing thing because I thought nobody cared, and being a "detective" seemed to be much more popular in school than singing, so I resorted to that.
Didn't work out as planned..

So, I joined choir, hoping maybe I could get somewhere. Ended up getting the solo for a play we were doing, and when it was announced, everyone became curious as to how I sounded, because I never sang in front of them. See, I had really bad stage fright..

The night of the play, everyone was super excited because we had been practicing for months and what-not.
Then came the moment I had to sing my solo. I was the last person to sing their solo, and everyone just watched as I stood up there, waiting for my turn.

When it finally came to me, I guess you could say I blacked out. I don't remember singing at all, whatsoever. I remember taking a deep breath, and that's when everything became a blur.
Whenever I finally came back, though, everyone was clapping and cheering, and today, my mom's words exactly are this, and I quote:

"When you started singing, everyone's mouths dropped open, some gasped, and other people looked around, asking who's kid that was. Everyone thought you were great." 

I thought she was joking until the other kids' parents started coming up to me, saying I did a great job.

Years later, I ended up losing faith in myself once again, repeatedly telling myself, "You're crazy, you could never be famous, and you suck at singing."

Then I got pushed to sing at my mom's best friend's wedding, and being that I had never sung in public in for EVER, I was extremely nervous. And when I get nervous, I get a weird combination of the laugh-cries.

So as the music to Beautiful by Christina Aguilera came on, I did my little nervous laugh cry thing, then once again, blacked out.

When I came back, everyone was quiet, other than babies running around and crying. Then I got a standing ovation from the table who had been wasted and singing showtunes all that day, and one of them said to me, "Well, I was going to sing, but my confidence level just went down really low!"
The girls at that table came up and asked if I would sing a few songs with them.
And my own mother came to me and said she didn't realize it was me..
My uncle, who I talk to the most about wanting to become famous, came up to me with tears in his eyes and told me "You're ready."

For some reason, ever since that day, I've been much more positive, optimistic, whatever you wanna call it, I push myself to do what I want/need to do. And I strive to make my dreams come true.

Like I said before, I will not let anything bring me down ever again. I'm going to the top, making it there, and as far as I'm concerned, I'm staying there.

Moral of the story: Never give up on yourself.. Believe in not only yourself, but your dreams. If you believe you can, you will. And I can't tell you how many times I've heard that, and how cliche it is, but it's 100% true.

Funniest thing about this whole post...
I haven't even gotten close to where I want to be yet.
But I know I can do it.

Ta ta, for now, readers.
Torie(:

Introducing... Me!(:

Hello to everyone reading my ramblings!
It's nice to meet you.
My name is Victoria(:, I'm a girl with a big dream, and I plan on fulfilling those dreams, no matter what it takes.

(To be blunt, I'm planning on making it somewhere in the world. I'm becoming famous, and nothing is going to stop me, but we'll get more into that later on.)

Oh, and my favorite color is blue.

You may be thinking or wondering, "What did you make a blog for?" or, "This is stupid and boring, and taking up my time and space, rah rah rah."

Well, a few days ago, my friend was talking about how she had an extremely pointless (but hilarious) blog, and as she was going on about it, it got me thinking; "Why don't I have a blog? Better yet, what is a blog?"

So I looked it up. The technical definition of a blog: A web site on which an individual or group of users record opinions, information, etc. on a regular basis. The definition my friend gave me (and I quote): "Basically, it's a place where you can write whatever you want and tell the world, "You're going to f***ing listen to me!"

(I can see where she comes from...)

So I decided, why not try it out? It might be fun, and it'll give people the chance to get to know you, who you really are, blah blah blah. And that's exactly what I'm doing.

Now, I just started this whole blogging business, so if you have any tips (if there's a way, that is), I would be more than happy to hear what you have to say. As well as questions you want to ask, whatever.

Whoever may be reading this, I hope you keep on reading! You won't be disappointed, I promise.
Bye!! Torie(:

(P.S. If you're interested, the friend that I mentioned earlier is here, too, @ fangirleverything.blogspot.com)